Another problem just struck down in my life. I'm so flustered right now, I don't know what I should do. But, what's worst is that I'm a horrible person. I made someone cry so much, I feel like I have no heart anymore. It hurts me to see that this person cry a lot because of my actions. I never meant it and I was stupid enough to let it happen.
I really don't want to do this to happen, but it seems like the universe is not on the same side as me. It's like the problem is meant to happen to me. I feel like, it's trying to test me, but then again, making someone cry is not ok. I don't like to see people being sad or cry, even when I'm sad/crying.
The main point is, I really feel horrible, I feel like I'm such a heartless monster and I messed it up! Something hit me hard and just smashed my walls.
Maybe I am a horrible person, some people do think so. Trust me, they're talking about how horrible and heartless I am behind my backs. I mean, who doesn't these days? People talk badly behind other people's back. Like it's not a big a deal, but once you realize, it is. I obviously did it and I feel bad about it.
I like to make excuses about it, like 'I don't think I'm talking behind their backs, I'm just expressing my opinion.' but honestly, I think I could do even better than that. I could just tell that person directly, but of course not. Why? Cause, I'm too scared to admit it.I'm too scared to admit that I love someone or that I miss someone badly. I'm too scared to admit that I have quite a dislike on one my friends.
I'm such a horrible person and I'm trying to fix it.
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